Autumn Vacation: Easter coming!

This week is the last week of college! Hurray. yay, whatever.

I started working at a new place, a sandwich take away. It's not much to do, but still hard to memorise all the menus. I haven't memorised anything heavy for a year, since I graduated from Year 11 at high school. Studying abroad is really too relaxed compared to my home country. For example, in Australia's high school, you can choose up to (I think) 8 subjects, and all of them are up to you. In my country Indonesia, you are not privileged to choose subjects. You are just given chance to choose either Social or Science Department (sometimes there is Language Department as well in few schools) and you must study and pass all subjects of the department you have chosen. I was in Social department, and the total of the subjects are 15. Science department would be the same as well.

It's DST last Sunday and the difference of time between Indonesia and Australia has reduced to one; becoming 3 hours. And the winter is coming, we're currently entering autumn and the weather is like 16-18 degrees in the night and 18-24 in the midday. One thing to do: start taking out your winter clothes already. ^^

I am so confused with universities these days, because I was a bit stopped by 'fees' problem. My family's financial is a crisis, and they have yet to solve how to pay my homestay fee for this April which is due this Sunday, the tenth. Now that I have worked, that means my parents don't have to send me daily necessities money for me anymore, but living costs and also the incoming university tuition I am going to enter this July is not a joke. My parents accepted the reality of me wanting to quit business and take International Studies as my major, and I was recommended by my agent to go to University of Canberra, which is in Canberra of course. And the living costs and tuition are very low there, just around $16,000 per annum for either International Studies or Business. The highest cost, I have checked is in the science faculty, which is only $20,000, where you have to pay like almost $30,000 in Sydney universities.

That would be my second choice out of 3. First, I am going to focus on UTS, and find out the intake, and if it's not okay, then I will move to the second, which is University of Canberra (UC) and the last one is TAFE again, and taking Diploma and Advanced Diploma in Business, then Business again until I finish my bachelor degree, which would be hell for me, because I am already giving up in Business, even now, I am struggling to finish this course of mine. That's why I can't wait for June to come.

There is a slight chance few days ago that I might be going back to Indonesia and I know that would be real shame for me and my family. I can afford to lose  my face, I don't really care, but I can't afford to have my parents' face lost... they struggled so much for my tuition and the other families especially that 'monster' will sneer, I am sure of that. Anyway, if the subject I am gonna take is not going to happen for me, then, I have no choice but to choose TAFE and business. Back to normal.

It's 17.33 now.
And my room is so dark already. The sky outside is dark already.

This year's summer is abnormal; too hot.
I hope this year's winter will be abnormal as well. Snow maybe.

I wish I didn't come here.
I wish I was still in Indonesia doing my Year 12 and National Exam together with my friends.
I wish I could turn back time.
I wish my boss and my closest friend here weren't Koreans.

How I wish that I close my eyes now and open it again and see that I have taken my bath. ('cause I haven't)

:P