It's Always The Same Problem

It's been long time since I updated my blog!

A lot had happened. The autumn break has come and go and the Easter has passed (I went to Sydney Royal Easter Show) and it has been a week since the college started.

The new class was super boring, I was waiting for a chance to switch back to my own class, which sounds a bit impossible. And I quit my second fucking job, and trying to search for new ones now. It's hard, and I am really running low on money now. Australian currency is shooting up like fireworks and it's hard on my parents. Whenever I think of that, my whole day will be ruined, because I will end up thinking until I am tired, browsing for jobs until my eyes couldn't open, go out and search for jobs until my toes are swollen and legs turn numb, or I would end up not eating lunch or eat apples ONLY for lunch.

Oh yes, I am in such sad situation. I just couldn't find one and if I found a job I will hesitate a lot because I will think of whether it suits me or not. Life is just hard for me, I wish I didn't have so much imagination, it's flying everywhere and when I found a job, my brain will always try to think of negative thinkings to prevent me from taking that job, and sadly, the negative points I thought of are all true.

I just hope I could find something simple, cashier or moving stocks or whatever. Or maybe a word processing operator since I graduated from Certificate 3 Business and an ex-classmate said to me that it wouldn't be hard to find a job for my age because it's cheaper to hire young people. Well, that might be true.

I might want to work at a bookshop. Kinokuniya needs CV and I couldn't possibly have that when I have not even graduated from university yet. I have yet to try Dymocks, but I don't think they'll have any though.

Well, wish me luck.