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Sleeping is the best choice of taking a rest. But I have different opinion about that recently.

I have been dreaming weird things lately, about some kind of adventures and some challenging dream - like a movie. Because of that, I couldn't sleep well. I mean, I enjoy the dream, yeah. But when I woke up, I feel very tired as if I really was in the adventure last night. It was weird, kinda becoming like Yumekui Merry (夢喰いメリー) TV アニメ. But at least, I'm not really hurt like the storyline in the episodes. For more information about 夢喰いメリー click on this link 夢喰いメリー - Wikipedia for Japanese language Wikipedia or Yumekui Merry - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia for English language.

One thing, I really hate the fact that I couldn't use internet to full capacity. These hosts of mine let me use their WiFi as long as it's not for downloading. Really, I should be thankful to them already. But somehow after few webcams, it suddenly slowed down, and BANG! The internet reached it's capacity, my hosts told me. And they said they only have up to 5 GB capacity per month. And then, thankfully they're very kind person, so they said they will try to increase the limit, which I feel bad. Well, I'll probably refrain from using webcams a lot and limit them to probably twice a month.

And I haven't gone out for this weekend! I would just waste more money if I go out, buying my food and stuff, and I don't have any particular place to go. It would be fun if I had a friend or some friends to go out with. Well, I have friends, it's just that I couldn't go out with them because their destinations are CLUBS. Clubbing and drinking. And that's not my area, and I won't be allowed to go in either, 'cause I am underage. And frankly, I don't like that kind of place. But going there for the first time is okay, just out of curiosity.

My friend, Soo Bin asked me. They will go with some friends from class, Aziz, Natasha, Raymond, Sung Hyun and few others... I guess. But, I couldn't because I am underage and I refused that offer, saying I had something to do. If I didn't lie like that, they'd probably do something like, put me in heavy makeup, or slip me in the club - that's easy because they know well of the club and slipping only me alone, a small little girl (well, I am not big sized) should be an easy job.

But I don't want that. I love things like that, things that BREAK RULES, but this is staking on my student visa and my studies here, which have used a lot of money of my parents. I might get kicked out from here and never to return here again because I am not serious in my study. That's my imagination. Better safe than sorry.

But, Soo Bin has just turned 18 last two weeks and she has been in and out clubs for few years now. So that means she might have been there since she was around 14 or 15 years old. That's crazy! And she is an international student and she is never caught. Maybe because of her boyfriend's influence, I think she usually go to clubs with her boyfriend and her boyfriends' friends. (all boys over-age). And that's not only the positive factor. Her makeup and how she put on her clothes are like 20+ woman. When I first saw her, I thought she was 23 or 24. But it turned out that she's still 17 when I met her, and going to be 18 the next day.

I would probably be killed as well if I really had gone there. My parents might come with a long, sharp knife and mutilate me. Haha. That's just a joke, there's no way they would do that to their own children, unless possessed by evil spirit. Bloody hell, I am so obsessed with spirits! =O

I think that the best thing for me to do now is just wait for my luck on getting a job. I have applied so many places, Coles, Ben & Jerry, an insurance company, KFC, McDonald's, and bla bla bla, but still no reply from them, and I was told that job vacancies are the least in the beginning of the year. That's why I won't go out, and save on money, 'cause if I go out, that means spending money. Saving even $2.70 sushi roll which I usually bought every time I went out for lunch is helping my cause of saving money already!

Oh yeah, I saw this like a month ago and have been thinking of posting it here, but I forgot. Actually it takes a lot more work as well, 'cause I have to plug in my iPhone to my Mac, and import the photos to iPhoto and then upload it here. Too much of work. But well, I did the too-much-work today. Haha.

It's the painting on the street again. I have seen one last winter already, and taken picture of it already, but still, it intrigues me a lot. What will happen if it rains? Though it's oil painting, but still the oil would be damaged by little water no? And this one is twice bigger than the one I saw last winter.

I admire people like this a lot. Too bad they are not able to open something like art gallery or exhibition, it would be so much fun. But they are still talented and professionals.

I saw a tree in front of the house where I am currently living now, just realised it two days  ago. I was in a blunder - I thought it was sakura tree. But it's not, and I think the flower is kind of like bougenville. (I dunno if I spelt right). But it's pretty right? There is a purple-coloured tree as well in the inner west of Sydney, and these kind of trees only blossoms in the spring or summer. It will wither in winter..., well no. It will drop all of its leaves and flowers in winter and and only the branches will be intact. It will transform to an ugly, no-flowers tree. =(

Nature is still the best subject to take a picture of. A friend of mine opened a blog with his three friends and they took pictures and of course edited them a bit in Photoshop, then they upload them in the blog, wanting comments from people. Some of them are quite good, check them out in Thrulens. It's very interesting. And he asked me to join as well, but I don't think I could produce the best or nice results. I don't have photoshop too, and I don't know how to get a free photoshop program for my Mac. So I decided that I would just upload pictures I have taken here. =)

Oh yes, there is also a huge tree near the police station. If you have been to Universal Studios Singapore, you must have known that there is a big tree featuring Madagascar movie, near the Titanic ship. I don't know which part it is, New York or Jurrasic Park, but you walk straight inside from the entrance and there will be a junction dividing to two routes - that's the place the tree is and the Titanic as well. This tree I took picture of look so much alike to the artificial tree in Universal Studios.

See the picture beside? If it's not clear, look at the other one below.

If you see it with your own eyes, it's actually clearer. The colour of its trunk is actually light brown, and on the picture, it's lot browner on the first picture.

On the second one, it looks more like a real tree, not like the artificial one in Universal. Well, I shot them from different angle that's why. And different days. But I like these kind of trees. It reminds me of haunted house. And I reckon it'll look cooler if it drops off its leaves.

Usually people hate trees like this, especially the superstitious ones, 'cause trees like this bring bad luck or the home of wandering ghosts. But I am bit different and my personality is actually normal, but my taste is dark, and I like things such as ghosts, premonition and stuff. And I love ghost stories or movies. Recently there hasn't been any good movies on the cinemas. I wanted ghost stories, not some kind of mysterious killers that is not seen, which made people think that it's a ghost attacking.

That's all folks! Until next time, bye!

A short story of Saturday 19 February 2011 at 9:09 PM

It's been a long time since I last posted here...! Well, not exactly long. It's only about a week. I have stayed here in my new homestay for a week now, and I wondered why time passes so slowly. I mean, it's a nice place here, but still... somehow I felt bored. I really need to go and find a job immediately.

Oh yes, a friend of mine told me this video was really really funny. For those who understands Indonesian, Melayu or Singlish, you'll probably understand almost 100% of the video. But if you don't, you'll have to ask for a translator then! It's really hilarious. Enjoy!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUg04hCqGDg

Moved

Yay! Hurray! I moved!

I just moved yesterday to a new place, a new home, which is more comfortable and worthy of living. It's an old house, but it's alright. I mean, me and the hosts have so much in common, like; we hate cockroaches, so insects won't be a problem; we are very clean, her husband vacuums like twice a day; and we eat same food! I mean, they're Asian, and I am, and the food is just like what my mum cooked back home, so nostalgic! I mean, it smells like home.

The area here is very nice, got four big shopping centres, and it's very near to the house. And there are lots of Asian shops and outlets as well, and I almost felt like I am in Hong Kong. There are lots of Korean shops, Vietnamese cuisines, Hong Kong restaurants, markets which sells like Asian things, Chinese herbal shop and a lot more. Maybe this would be a great place to live in if I bring my parents here later, but the houses here are so expensive. I mean, it's elite location and everything, and you'll see all big houses and wealthy people. But, it's worth saving money to buy house of this area. I'm loving it already.

The hosts are nice people, decent people, and they are very considerate, unlike my previous one. Maybe because they are Asian, and we think alike. We are more polite in every way we do things and "no offence" to other ethnics. 

Well, I will take few pictures of the area and put them on blog. Maybe later though. I am too lazy to do that now. Haha. Oh yeah, and Happy Valentine! I saw lots of roses today in the shopping centres and florists' as well. Good luck to couples! LOL

Hated For The First Time In My 17 Years of Life

Of all the people I know, there is a woman who seems to hold a grudge towards me. And after all my 17 years, this is the only one I know who is grudging towards me.

And that hateful woman is my host in the homestay I am staying at. Whoa, she’s really acting like a bitch. The last time, I complained to the homestay provider because she’s not helping anything with my problems even though I asked few times. So shouldn’t it be normal if I turned to ask help from the homestay provider?

Then, she went home that day I complained, straightened everything out. All I said was OK, actually she sounded absurd and I wasn’t even given chance to defend myself. Alright, I let it go, and it became seeds of hatred towards that person. That night, she gave me a towel, and asked me to wet it and put it on my forehead to cool myself down of the heat. I didn’t use it at all, it was so dirty! There was like faded stains on it, and it smelled really heavy, like a cloth which hasn’t been washed for ages. I was wondering why did she got so friendly terms with me suddenly, and I think maybe she thought I understood everything already and thus, she was back to her normal attitude.

The next day was Lunar New Year’s Eve, and she let me stay in my cousin’s place for a night, even though it wasn’t allowed, and we kept it little secret just both of us. No one says anything, it’ll be fine.

And that particular New Year’s Eve, my agent Lila said that she contacted the homestay about my move to a new place, and hidden fact that we will not be using the same provider from my current provider. Then the thing was like, the homestay provider asked my host if I wanted to move, and she said no. And I told my agent that I am POSITIVE of moving away and maybe she told the homestay and the homestay told my host.

It was my choice after all, whether I wanted to stay at her place or etc. The day I got back, she went home and cooked dinner for me and called, ‘Dinner.’ like that and went out again. Then I remember why she went out; she had OT and she told me before, but I thought her OT was Saturday. She said Thursday like Saturday, no wonder I got it wrong. Usually she would ask, even from downstairs, like how was my day, and obviously she knew that I am celebrating Chinese New Year, but she said nothing about it even though she looked enthusiastic when I departed to my cousin’s from her home. And from that on, I got a queer feeling of her hostility towards me. I mean, I had premonition. I didn’t see her at all until night at almost ten, she came home, with her daughter, I have not slightest idea where her daughter had gone to.

The next day, I have my orientation. I woke up and went down for breakfast after I was all done and she was still there. And she didn’t even ask me a bit about my stay at my cousin’s and when I came down she was near the stairs doing her sunglasses which seems to be broken. I said hi and she looked up, and I was thinking what she said even up  to now, whether it was ‘hi’ too in a very low voice and mouth-not-opened-at-all kind of mouth movement, or she said ‘oh’ in a low voice. And I felt it, her hostility, she looked like she was thinking me as transparent. She was kind of active woman and liked to know things (from her attitude) and to think that she didn’t ask anything about my New Year celebrations? I am not saying that I wanted her attention, or for her to notice, but I was stating the fact she ignored me from that. And there was a plate of bread; two slices on it, and I thought it was hers, so I opened the fridge and saw a loaf of bread, but it was a loaf from the ones on the plate, and it hasn’t been sliced. And so, I immediately know that that one on the table was mine, because she must knew I couldn’t cut it, I don’t know which knife to use. Judging from her usual way of doing things, she would leave the knife and the loaf of bread on the cutting table, and left the house. But it was not like that. Everyhting was neat, not really neat but neat for her. Usually plastics will be on the kitchen cabinet, and some utensils would be laying on the table, used or unused. This is put away all of them, nicely even though the kitchen still has spider webs on its every corner. I smell something amiss. I took the bread from the table, then I thought I should ask her if that was mine, and I called her, but it turned out she has gone.

I got everything understood immediately. Like a strike of lighting piercing my mind. She was angry or not happy about something. I didn’t do anything, I didn’t even meet her yet since I came back and only just now. She should have told me about the breakfast she left in the kitchen. But she didn’t and she stormed out like that, even I didn’t know. She didn’t even say morning.

And I traced my brain; I found it. The things I said to my agent yesterday about moving. She must have known about it as well, but why would she get unhappy? Then I remembered. I was asked to send photos of my room to the agent, and I also sent some pics of the spider-web-covered kitchen as well. Probably she was told that I sent the photos, that’s why she’s not happy that I took photos of her house so freely? And why the hell did my agent told them anyway?

I sent email to my agent and asked them about it, but the reply hasn’t come. I guess I had to wait till tomorrow, but I really wish to know. Just now, I just had dinner. And same, she called, ‘Dinner’ like that and I went down bringing my timetable along because I remembered she said she wanted to know my timetable to have her German lessons. And I told her I will tell her after my orientation, and there is no way she would forget my orientation, and even her daughter asked me on the dining table. But she didn’t show any signs of wanting to talk with me, and avoiding her eye contact with me and didn’t even ask my schedule.

I am very stubborn person. If someone won’t talk to me or usually ‘didn’t talk’ to me, I will ignore them as well. I wouldn’t care about that, but the hostility I felt is one problem. I felt like I was in a emotion war, and who can hold out the longest, he wins. I hate it.

Well, I think, why should I be afraid of her? Why should I feel heart-stricken? Damn it, I don’t even have any connections to her, and she is the one who made my life hell since I came back. If I got a choice, I wouldn’t even move away from my previous homestay, I wouldn’t even fork out the replacement fee for that, I wouldn’t even have to sprain my left wrist for carrying all the luggage myself with her sitting and doing her own work, completely ignoring me who was so troubled in carrying my luggage inside the house when it’s raining, and carrying them upstairs. I wouldn’t even want that all.

I am really pissed, that’s it. i just really want to reply back to her and want her to understand, but she won’t understand. I really feel like kicking and hitting her, too bad this is not my turf, and I can’t do as I please in Australia. I remember all the people I have met, who pissed me like this as well, were finished  by me. But I couldn’t do anything here, just nod my head and accept everything, it was absurd and sickening.

I hope everything will be fine onwards. I just need to bear it for... 20 days starting today. 2 weeks and half and I will move away, I hope I can move on the date where it was supposed to be, I don’t want something like, ‘you need 4 weeks to process the move’ and bla bla. I really hope everything will be alright. Dear Almighty God, hello? Please help. Amen.

Chinese New Year!

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! I wish you good luck, prosperity and health and may you have a wonderful, prosperous new year on this Rabbit year!

Sadly I am not celebrating with my family as usual. It's due to my studies that's why. I can only spend this with my cousins who happens to live here in Sydney as well. Well, I just hoped that this will quickly pass, and then when I got a job and earned money, I can rent and gradually buy a house and drag my family here. That's what motivate me, but sometimes I still feel very afraid to work, I mean, I haven't got any experience in working, and then what if I am not on good relationship with the boss or my co-workers, something like that.

Yesterday, we had a hot pot. The picture is not very clear, as it's from the side I'm taking picture, well, I tried to take some pics again but my iPhone wasn't working. I guess there's really a grave problem on it. The pot looks quite the same with the pot in Korean movies. They usually use it to cook ramen, and eat them on the lid of the pot.

I couldn't say it as delicious, but it's still edible. After that, Mel, my oldest cousin here, brought us to a karaoke she usually goes with her friends and we sang a lot, and went home at 11 plus. And they were still hanging on computers and laptops and phones after so late and I thought, what would happen if I eventually stay with them later after my college is finished this July? Well, I don't even want to imagine it, and with the quickest idea possible, I thought of requesting a room for myself and if possible again, a toilet of my own. It seems impossible to share a toilet with them, I don't know, but I don't like the way their toilet is now, I feel like I wanted to rearrange them all after looking at it, but no offence to them, alright? I was just being straightforward, and saying my opinions. Well, I might share toilet with them, but maybe not the room. I was used to having my own room since I came here (I always sleep with my little sister back in my home) and I wouldn't want to sleep with others again since I have already settled with a room of my own, but let's see after that whether I had earned money or not, because a room of our own means bigger expense! Duh.

And finally I woke up today and Happy New Year everyone! There isn't a feel of Chinese New Year here. Maybe not here in the city. But I heard from my previous host that there were some fireworks around her suburb. So probably the suburbs were more lively than the city people, eh?

It's quite a sad feeling not to be able to spend new year with family, usually our new year are always boring, but this year, my family and my cousin Cindy's family are gathering together with my aunt from Medan, and they had reunion dinner yesterday night at Batam. And today they went to Singapore and probably be sitting in the casino, gambling by now, while my little sister, and Cindy's little brother, also my cousin, Albert wander off by themselves, because they can't go inside the casino. What a turn of events. Who would know that they actually went to casino in the first day of New Year?

Reunion Dinner!

Today is Chinese Lunar New Year Eve! Sadly this year, I am not together with my parents and I am currently in the city of Sydney. I will only celebrate it with my cousins who are also here.

It's a bit sad isn't it? Usually you get to eat homemade cooked hot pot and now, we'll just go out and have dinner. It's exhausting to wash after eating so we thought going out is better. Today's weather was no better, it's still hot and annoying, making you drop bullets of water from your forehead and so on. I haven't bought protector for my MacBook yet, it seems scary standing inside the Apple Retail Store alone, knowing nothing, so I might drag my cousin along later.

I am a bit envious of my sister back there in Indonesia; one of cousins here, Cindy's family is going to spend new year with mine, so they will arrive today from Pekan Baru and have roasted pork for lunch, and a feast for reunion dinner tonight. They will also be joined by my single aunt from Medan, and together they are going to Singapore tomorrow to the casino. Yeah, first day of new year in a casino? How odd.

I still have to buy a fan, the fan my cousin Mel intended to lend me was too big for me to carry back to my homestay. I think I should find a mini fan, or maybe the easier one to carry.

My current host was such an asshole and I hated her, I dislike her, abhor her, I don't know why, but she is very annoying and she doesn't take critics from anyone else. She's like the type; if you cross me, you're so dead. Whatever, I am going to move sooner anyway, I just hoped luck is on my side this time, let me find a nice host, house, clean, and easy going, just like my previous host, Christine.

Okay, no more talk about hosts, I am sick of them. Let's talk about ending the entry for today. I have no more things to complain, and it's getting hotter, and I might need to go to the loo.

What Should I Do?

Again, hello Blogger! I have used Blogger once before and I quit, moved to MySpace Blog and now I left MySpace and back to Blogger again!

I'll just make this blog the continuation from my MySpace Blog. So today, the topic is 'What Should I Do?'. I have moved to a new home stay in my study progress in Australia, and this one is really not worthy to be called a room. My room is an attic room, so the second floor of this house, is my room, just a few metres room. It got a fine toilet, and a dressing room where I put my clothes. Well, actually not. It was actually a store room, where my host put her winter clothes, Christmas tree and camping utilities. So I was given a small space to put my clothes. And I am not satisfied with it. See the picture beside? That's the space I am talking about. My things are until that round mirror on the table. And just few days before, I saw a cockroach on the floor in that store room. COCKROACH! One night, I went down wanting to drink from the kitchen. Guess what I saw? A COCKROACH again! It was crawling on the cabinet, and I asked my host about that, she said as long as it doesn't dirty things or disturb us during our sleep, it is fine. FINE? OMG, I am dying here and she's fine about it? Maybe she never masters her Biology back in high school. Cockroaches carry germs on their foot, and YOU, meaning HUMAN's EYES can't see germs because they are very small components! Unless you see them with microscope! And she said the cockroach isn't dirtying anything on the cabinet where she uses to prepare food? No wonder I have been feeling unwell every time I had her food; my stomach a little bit turned here and over. Thankfully I got a strong stomach, but probably I am not really healthy too. I mean, I slept like 6 hours every night. Lack of sleep makes you unhealthy.

Well, the picture beside is the room. There are two windows in the picture, actually it's three, I just didn't get the angle right when I shot it. There's also air con behind the picture (not visible). It's summer now, and she said to open the window if you feel hot. Yeah, I opened it, and yes, it's windy THAT DAY. Yesterday was hell. And today. There's no wind at all. The room is humid, stupid. She won't let me use the air con, saying electricity bill is really expensive. Yeah, I understand that, but won't you let me open it at least few minutes to cool the room? My previous host would let me do that.

It is because of the room. An attic room, its contact with the outside is far more closer. I mean, sunlight pours down to the roof and my room is located beneath the roof. So in summer, the room temperature will be very hot, and in winter it will be very cold. Just logical thinking. With weather this hot, electrical appliances in my room, such as my laptop will go damaged as well. Electronics must be stored in not too COLD and not too HOT place, and it's already too HOT here, even though I didn't use my laptop, it's hot like cooked and it doubles up if I was using it like now.

Oh yeah, since my incident with the cockroach in the store room above (first pic), I moved all my things, and clothes to the space outside covered in blue, near the desk and chair (second pic. I never used that room again, and I closed it tight, covered every corner I could reach and the door with insect repellant I bought back in Indonesia when I went back for holiday. FYI, insect repellants here are so not effective. Unless you buy Mortein, Baygon (the spray), that would be effective, but even the smallest bottle (length from your thumb to your little finger) of that costs $6.00 (Rp 54.000,00) when you can buy the largest one with only about Rp 20.000,00 or more in Indonesia. Crazy right?

Oh yeah, one most absurd thing. This host of mine got an iron in her room. I saw it and I acted innocent and asked her if she had one, because I need to iron my clothes. And did you know what she said?

'People usually had a set of iron themselves.'

That's really absurd! Ridiculous! I mean, I am paying for this home stay! She doesn't have the slightest intention to borrow it to me and kept stressing that the iron is in her room. Well, iron is not the wall, you can drag it out. Well, I think she doesn't want to borrow it and it is obviously a NO so I didn't ask again.

Well, for your information, I didn't come to Australia to buy house appliances like an iron! I came here for studies for God sake! And she asked me to have one. Haha! I can die from laughing. This is one worst home stay, oh my God. How can I even study like this? It's hot and humid now, and I bet will get worse in the following seasons.

I don't feel at home as I have felt in my previous home stay. I even packed my things, ready to leave any moment. See my bags above? I put all my unused things in the suitcase and some of my clothes I might not wear often into bags. 

All the things left outside are the picture below.

Well, that is better. I have consulted my agent and   the home stay here as well. I  probably will hear from them anytime today soon. What a luck having this host. Surely this 2011 is not really welcoming me eh?